she

She is an artist and I am nothing. We met at a party on New Year's two years ago, and I have yet to get her out of my head. Her black hair falls below her shoulders in gentle waves, leaving her bright blue eyes unobstructed. Her smile is crooked, but I love it because it's hers. She wears too much mascara and perfume, and all of her sunglasses are too big for her face. All of her jeans are ripped and she always seems to have a plaid shirt readily available. She wears about ten-million jelly bracelets on her left wrist and she always has "LOVE" written on her right hand in permanent marker because she's too afraid to get a tattoo. When she laughs, I am jealous of whoever gets to hear it, because it is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard.

Her favorite video game is Left 4 Dead and her favorite movie is Fight Club. She watches the Colbert Report and the Daily Show for news instead of CNN or FOX. Her favorite color is green and she has a slight addiction to coffee. She doesn't drink or smoke but she can party with the best of them. She never wears high heels because she's uncoordinated, but when she walks, I swear to you I've never seen anything more graceful.

Her paintings are mostly faces and birds, and she always wants my opinion. And I always think everything is amazing. She'll stomp her foot and tell me to be honest. And I'll always look her straight in the eye and say I think it's beautiful and I love it. She smiles and tells me thank you, and she has no idea I'm talking about her. She's always beautiful. Even when she cries.

Her eyes well up and her cheeks get red, and her mascara runs. Her sobs are so painful to witness, but they're wonderful in that I didn't cause them. I can only cure them. I am who she comes to when she's sad, when she's angry, when she's lonely, when she's helpless or afraid. No matter who she takes home at night, I will always be the one she comes back to. And once she is happy, she will always leave me again.

I know I can never keep her here, but dammit if I don't want to try.